welcome to the world

well , i am a sort of reclusive person with bouts of adventurousness. i have had trouble with the world overwhelming me since i was a little girl. there are so many icky ,scary ,wonderful things out there and i am afraid I'm missing it all but God help me why cant i get involved more . I'm ranting to myself trying to have a freakin breakthrough and maybe discover some kind of solution i can live with. so I'm blogging in hopes of accomplishing this. here goes my journey .